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Some of you may have read this before and agreed with it or disagreed with it.
The highlighted area is what bothers me.

If we believe we have a disease, that there is no cure, that we can’t beat it and that we will always struggle with it, then we will never get better.
God gave us the ability to conquer anything. How do we do that? We surrender to Him daily. We remain humble and admit we have a serious problem that is not only an addiction but something deeper that we need to fix.
I refuse to accept that addiction is a disease. We are able to overcome, we are able to succeed and we are able to let go.
This is why I named this site Become Free. I was an addict for over 10 years. I struggled with heroin, opiates, cocaine, benzo’s, anti depressants and God only knows what else.
My daily intake was over 1000 mg’s of OxyContin a day. I got to the point of suicide and absolute complete depression.

Then one day I gave my life to Jesus Christ and I haven’t been the same since. It took time and perseverance. It took rehab and wonderful people in rehab to help me. Over time I became free from my bondage and my slavery to drugs. I had a renewal of my mind, I gained my self control back and I am a new creation.
In order to believe I have a purpose I must believe I was created. As a book glorifies an author, as a painting glorifies an artist, so are we to glorify God.
And you know what is awesome, I’m not alone. There are so many that are living the same way. Freed from addiction.
You have to want it as bad as you wanted your poison.

I didn’t learn to deal with my addiction, I learned that I was in need of a Savior. I learned that I was created by an Almighty God that loves me no matter what I do. I learned that giving up MY ways and living according to His Word, I am set free!!!!!

Listen, God is either real or He’s a fantasy. You either have a purpose or you do not.

You have a choice to believe it or not and that choice is going to determine your lifestyle.

Become Free, Become the Difference.

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Boston-based poet Matt Ganem, turning his experiences into poetry detailing his struggles with addiction, he looks to be a voice for the voiceless, giving hope to anybody caught in the grip of addiction, active users, people that are clean and the families that are affected.

Here’s a taste…

Junkie
Scumbag
Heroin addict
IV user
Loser
With no future
The whole world will be better off if you died sooner

Son
Brother
Father
Friend
How am I going through this cycle again
Some cuts never mend
Even if I beg to make amends
Its like they’d rather see me end up dead
Then make my way to a detox bed
My demons are at war inside of my head
Only subsiding when they get needle fed with poisonous meds

My bones ache
Dealing with hot and cold sweats
So when I’m curled up and dope sick
Understand there’s nothing I won’t do for my next fix
This is my normal and I’m just trying to deal with it

Nothing else really matters
Been feeling low trying to get higher than climbing a push up a ladder
When the blood mixes I feel the rush immediately after
And forget about the self destruction that my life’s a disaster
Hoping this time isn’t the last words to my final chapter

Insecurity
Anxiety
The pain shame and the guilt
Hopelessness
Depression
Getting high enough to see my friends up in heaven
Pale skin complexion
Overdoses should be a lesson
That I’m headed in the wrong direction
This is suicide by injection

No family
No friends
No love
Just hate
When they look at my empty seat with disgrace
Prepared for my wake
Scared of my fate
Wish I could start over with a clean slate
I look in the mirror and can’t recognize my face

A stranger looking back
Arms covered with scars like train tracks
Permanent reminders from shooting smack
I close my eyes and hope this shot is my last
Let my name fade into the past

I’m broken
With a shattered soul
I’d rather fold
Than continue on this addict road

Son
Brother
Father
Friend
I refuse to back to that madness again
Even if I can’t make amends
To my family and friends
The only thing that matters to me is being clean in the end.

Matt’s making a difference. You can too.

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Visit www.wickedsober.com or call 1-855-698-5056 for detox/treatment information Today!

Also visit www.mattganemthepoet.com
and www.facebook.com/mattganempoet

Become Free. Become the Difference!