Posts Tagged ‘Choice’

Well, it is at first.  Then again, at first, we are not addicted.  So when does addiction take it’s power over us?  How far into our habitual obsession do we need to go to see the decision making become automatic; into it’s predestined pattern?  

Yes, we have the power of choice.  We choose to experiment.  We choose to hang out and commune with the right people and the wrong people.  We have a decision making process which makes good choices and bad choices and we have to deal with the consequences either way.

We constantly hear of people, friends and family, overdosing and dying from substance abuse.  “Oh, they made a bad choice.  What were they thinking?  They chose that path; they made their bed now they have to sleep in it.”  I hear it all the time.  Usually from people who have never experienced addiction and the power it has over us.  People think it was our choice to suffer and become thieving junkies.  That first day when we experimented with our long term poison, we weren’t saying to ourselves, “I can’t wait to screw everyone over and destroy my life and every bridge I have ever walked across.”

Addicts made a choice one day to use.  We made a choice, for whatever reason; depression, stress, a loss, childhood trauma, whatever.  We chose to take a mental stimulus to impose happiness in one form or another.  We also chose to take a dip in it at the end of every stressful week.   Which became a couple times a week, to every other day, to every day.  Has addiction set up it’s scaffolding yet?  Not yet.

mhYqfi4Believe it or not, our minds are still at peace.  We are happy.  We’re feeling really good and enjoying the high.  It enhances our abilities and helps to see positively; it’s a new hope!  Well, that’s how it seems.  We don’t know whats going on yet.  As far as we are concerned, it’s just something we are doing, like brushing our teeth, with magical toothpaste.. we do that every day right?

sad-woman-silhouetteSome time goes by.  Something tells us we may have a slight problem so we try to stop.  We try and quickly realize life isn’t the same without this chemical.  Our thoughts change, our conscience tells us one thing and we compromise with another.  There is a mental battle going on between what is right and what is wrong.  What we used to spend time on, our priorities, important things, very important things, we no longer have a care for and become secondary.  Then we get depressed because we are trying but we are not able to choose.

Something either tells us or moves us to constantly feed this compulsive obsession.  It’s needed.  We persistently depend on it.  Now addiction has moved in and it is renting space we just don’t have.  It has become our engine, being fueled with chemicals.  It is the mainframe of our thinking, the electrical system for our thought process and like a cancer it grows and grows and surrounds our thoughts like a vine wrapped around a telephone pole.

Every choice and decision we make from here on is like flipping a coin.  We are lost in a maze with no solution; we have no idea how we got in and have no clue how to get out.  Integrity, motivation, self control, and happiness are all out the window.  Hope and faith are so far away we can’t even come up with any words to define them.  We are on a self centered path of destruction and we don’t care who or what is in the way.  Emotions and feelings are for the weak.  “Just give me what I want, please, I need one more…”, is a daily mission statement.  Scheming, lying, cheating and manipulating are now our new characteristics.  We are on auto pilot and we are so far in, well, lets just say it’s like a tunnel in the shape of a circle, it’s a vicious cycle of disappointment and regression.

Welcome.  This is drug addiction.  You can relate to this or you can relate this to someone you know.  Some of you may even be able to relate this with addictions other than drugs and substances; the thoughts and the obsession.

Choices and decisions are not of our own.  We are not thinking clearly.  We are lost.  We are addicts and in our addiction, getting high, fueling up, our doses, our outcomes and our thinking become compromised.  No quote card on a website is going to make us better.  We are under siege, we are being controlled by something else.  It’s not us.  It’s not a choice any more.

If you or someone you know is struggling with substance abuse or drug addiction, there is hope.  Constantly offering help to a loved one is difficult and they may hate you for it, but when they come around, they will love you for it.
This is why there are detox and rehabilitation facilities nation wide.  There are people willing to offer help, resources and information on treatment for people struggling with addiction.  Call 888-831-2327 for a Treatment Center near you, anywhere in the United States, 24-7.

Most importantly, keep them in your prayers.  Do not give up on them. Pray to God Almighty that He intervenes and breaks their addictive behaviors and sets them free!

Become Free!  Become the Difference!